I have a confession. Don't worry. It's not something bad that I've done. It's something that people had done to me. I never knew this could happen to me. I never knew. Never even had the thought about it. I thought coming to UK to study was fun.I thought everything is going to be fine. Then i thought getting a job is gonna get me some allowances for myself. Indeed. It does. But not when people did something towards you. Not when it is more than a staff and employee relationship. Not. I just started work for 3 days (1 day training). But it's starting to creeps me out to go to work. I'm afraid to go to work. Yes, i can leave but looking for another job is not an easy task. So I've decided to continue work for probably a month and see how it goes or waits til he finally upset with me and ask me to leave. Back to the main point. Basically, my boss (the chef) literally just sexual harassing me. Its true. I didn't want this to be true but it is so true that i couldn't accept the fact that i was actually harassed by him. The first day, he got so touchy that whenever he walk pass me, he touched my back. Okay. I'm fine with it cause i thought i should go along with their bloody CULTURE! Being OPEN! So, i let it slipped. Then the next day he ask me to go to his office to talk about my salary and all and said that i owe him cause he gave me a higher pay. *BULLSHIT*! After discussing with him, he ask for a hug. So i did. Then i realised that he had his thumb against my 'breast'.......... Then he ask for a kiss. Of course i never gave it to him (He's a dirty looking bastard). Then i leave. Thoughts came to my mind thinking it was an accident that he touched me. And so came the next day, after work. To his office again. Telling me to bring some documents the next day for him and complain me about making a mistakes. Then after leaving, he ask for a hug again. Then again... it happened.... AGAIN. and he said... Your 'breast' is small (i am a tiny girl, so don't expect me to have big boobs). then he continue saying can i touch it while looking at it. I said NO of course. Then i left with anger and sadness on my face. Thinking.. how could he do such thing towards me. Then i realised, I'm so weak against this kind of things. I feel hopeless and useless. I don't know how to fight it. I felt depressed. My friends ask me to quit but i said i want to do it for at least a month. But i'm afraid that it's going to happen more frequent. I'm scared. That pervert. That bastards. That ***ker. I don't know what to say no more. I just hope that one day he will fall deeply and terribly that he could not get up. One day, he will have his karma. I will never ever forget this incident. This will haunt my life forever and i have to live with it. Therefore, i will learn from it. That's all for now. Confession ends.
June...